At a glance

I've hit a mental block right? I'm not sure why, but I am struggling. I've had multiple pep talks from my trainers and friends. I continue with my exercising and eating well, I also try reading motivational quotes or stories.  My mind isn't in it or I guess out of it. I'm the kind of person that has to turn my mind off when I hit the gym. If I don't, my mind is full of self doubt and complaining. It's quite annoying actually. You know those girls in the gym, "it's too hot", "this is too hard", "I hate squats", "my knee hurts", " I hate sweating," yeah that's what is in my head. I prefer to turn it off, and count reps, or concentrate on my breathing. Lately though, it has been, "Why are you even trying? You aren't getting the results you want. Just stop already, your hubby would understand." But there are a few things that keep me going, one is I'm a mother of two hard headed children; a six year old that is trying to learn the limits and a ten month old that knows how to push all the wrong buttons, and I need to relieve my stress one way or another. Second, I'm a HUGE cheapskate, and if I know my money is coming out of my account, you better believe if it's $5 or $130 I'm going to be getting my moneys worth. Lastly, I have motivated people. I feel like the little bit that I have done is so small compared to my awesome gym rat friends, but to those that are sitting where I was almost a year ago, I am inspiring to them! Yesterday, I had someone that I admire greatly (she is tiny and has a huge love of food also) tell me that she wishes she could get going, and get fit like me. In my mind I was all "PSSSH, please! I wish I was your size!" But later I realized that, it's the determination that she admired. Maybe my muscles too ;-) Which leads me to this, I have accomplished so much. I look in the mirror and some days I still see what I think is the same old same old, but when I compare my pictures I see a huge difference. I mean who wants a double chin for the rest of their life? NOT THIS GIRL! My trainer was kind enough to share my before and after picture with me today, this may have given me that UMPH I have been needing. This picture is from November 29, 2012 (4 months postpartum) to March 29, 2013 (8 months postpartum). It takes time, but as long as you are losing something, or even gaining something (confidence, muscle, energy) it is worth it.

                                                            IT IS WORTH IT!