WELCOME! First off, I feel the need to clear up a few things. First, I am not a grammar teacher and I have horrible grammar. I apologize immensely for my very obvious need for an English class. But, if you will bear with me and ignore the horrible sentence structure or atrocious grammar, I think we will have a great deal of fun! Second, although I may or may not be pursuing a nutrition degree, it has no emphasis on my knowledge of fitness or nutrition, so please remember I AM NEW AT THIS, and I don't have all the answers, this is just what has worked for me. Last but not least, be NICE! Any comments in a negative manor will be deleted. I'm just here to share my experience not to teach anything and negativity will not be tolerated.
Okay, so now that I got that off my chest, the fun can begin! Hi, I'm Rachelle and I am a food addict. HAHA, aren't we all? Let me tell you a little bit about what brought me to this point that I am at today. I had just turned 21 or maybe it was 22 (I can't even remember how old I am), and my baby was six months old. I was tipping the scale at 220 pounds, and I was miserable. I had the all clear to exercise again, but I lacked the desire. I felt gross, and I thought that anyone that was looking at me thought the same thing. My once amazing self confidence had been smashed to pieces and I hated myself.
I tried so many different things, like weight watchers, metabolic research, counting calories, south beach, the fat smash diet, and even some unhealthy ways, like diet pills. YUCK! Each would work for a little while and when I stopped or transitioned back, all the weight came back and maybe even more. I felt defeated every single time.
Fast forward 5 years, here is where I hit rock bottom. You have to hit rock bottom almost every time before you make a change. I had been trying to get pregnant with our second baby and miscarriage after miscarriage, or failed attempt things would get worse and my hope was shrinking. Doctors told me it wasn't going to happen and to give up. But I knew differently, so I found another doctor, she gave me hope and advised me to count calories and make an appointment with a fertility doctor as soon as possible. I did just this, and found out from the fertility doctor that I had an intolerance to carbs. I was put on a diabetes medicine to help control this, and I was sick! All the time, and I was losing weight very fast. Then we got pregnant! Between the fertility drugs, and the diabetes medicine I couldn't keep anything down. I lost 30 pounds that first trimester. I never felt good again the entire pregnancy.
My son had turned six, and went to the doctor for his well check. He was six years old and weighed 85 pounds, yes he is tall, but even still 85 pounds put him in the obese category. Blood work was required now :-( and the results broke my heart. He had prediabetes and high cholesterol. "That's it!" I cried, "I'm killing my own son!" ROCK BOTTOM!
I had watched Fat, Sick, and Nearly Dead, and decided that since I couldn't keep anything down, I would start juicing my fruits and veggies. This worked! I was able to keep these juices down. I then started to remove processed juices from my son's diet. If he wanted juice, he was getting the good stuff. The research began and processed foods or POISON as I call them, slowly started to leave our home.
Fast forward yet again, and I'm in my 8th month of Stafford Bootcamp. I'm down 45lbs from where I began. I juice two meals a day and eat 90% vegetarian meals. I still have cheat meals, and I guarantee that they almost always have BACON! I was a food addict after all, so it's to be expected that I'd have my bacon still :-) I fit in my wedding dress again, I've gone from a size 18 to a size ten. I get my butt to the gym every day, and I push until I'm shaking from exhaustion. So that's my story, but why am I blogging about this? Well, I have hit a wall. Not physically, but mentally. I still go to the gym everyday, and I still train for my 5k every other day. My head just isn't in it. I want to care, I really do, but I just don't, but I really do want to. It's a back and forth kind of thing. I'm hoping that by getting my thoughts out of my head that I can knock down the wall and have a bright outlook again. So here is my question to you. When you hit a wall, how do you tackle it? What works for you ?
What an amazing story. Im only inmy 2nd wk of BC but ive been thru the whole weight loss thing b4. About 4 yrs ago myself & a friend starting eating right & working out. Ill admit I used diet pills at first but within 5mnts I was down 70lbs & went from a 18 to a 9. I kept it off for a couple years. Then got pregnant & gained it all back plus. Now that mychild is about to be 2 I finally gotmotivated again. I will say those times I hit a wall last time the only thing that kept me going was friends & having someone going thru the journey with me. As moms we have to do whats best for them & us being healthy is what they need. So you can think about those babies when u hit the wall. Im always here if u need to talk/vent! You look great & I know your going to dogreat as u continue! :)
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